Why did I do this stupid thing? But actually it was you who has driven me to this point, you've brought me to the point that 'i wanna say stop I can't take this any more and can't live in this confusion more,specially when you say this has nothing to do with feelings it's just mere words i like, So I had to say no these are not mere words cause I am not a feeling-less person who won't be moved no matter what, else you should know that every word should not be said unless we mean it. Yet again, I can't take this any longer, my life has stopped at this point when I sent you the message; i keep repeating the moment again and again telling myself that I shouldn't have done this but in the end what can I do now, how can I amend this, please for just one time in your life and our relationship take the initiative and be understanding, even if my words were to harsh for you...

I just hate this feeling when I am yearning and wishing to speak with someone so much, yet the moment we speak I am completely disappointed; simply because this person didn't give you the response you were waiting for, it's just another call to ask about another person not to hear your voice or to talk with you, what's more the call is ended so easily and quickly as if you don't matter at all. Despite the words that you are very important, but in the end feelings can't be felt with just words, actions are the most important; cause in the end I start to hate myself for wanting to talk with that person if just we could say those words out loud, I think many problems would have been easier.