And here we met, after almost three years just to realize that either you're living in comma or I don't occupy any part of your thinking, however what surprised me the most was my reaction, I was so calm and decent and talked like nothing has happened. Unfortunately I can't even describe my feelings because I don't know whether I was happy, sad, disappointed or indifferent ,may be because I made a reaction not expected from me.....I am  unable to say anymore cause I can't....So What happened today!!!!!!!

So what's this?!why am I like this? I am in a very good mood, smiling and happy,yet deep deep down in my heart there seems to be a continuous pain,that doesn't disappear and can't be even be calmed by my good mood. I am sick of this state and I want to end it,really wish if I could get you out of there my heart,because your pain is unbearable to me any more, cause I want to enjoy my life and time not to be disturbed by you every single moment, so please I beg you stop this or at least find a solution...I want to be relieved of this pain pleaaaaase...

كم اتمنى أن تكون معي فِى هذآ

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بدلاً من كتآبه أمنيتي فقط........