Ana zh2aaaaaaaaaaan awi we msh la2y 7aga a3mlha,kman el nt bty2 we hyshlny ,k2no 3wez yzowed elana fih,we tb3n bd2t a7es eny miss u ktir,although u r very important for me but I hate my weakness towards u,this weakness that make me want to see u any how and by any means,that I want to take my heart out and rip it, to get rid of this, cause I really hate being weak....

Love, Friendship and Work ;three very important and controlling things in our life, yet deciding which one is the most important seem to be an impossible task,so between love and friendship which one would you choose,some will choose love over friendship while others will choose friendship,although both opinions should be respected ,but for me friendship will always come first.Still I want to mention that one time I heard someone saying that he would choose both so I really want to know how.The other choice would be between love and work,this is really a controversial topic but as for me I will follow the opinion of someone who i really love ,admire and respect and that is to choose both at the same time,that's the only person who made me regain my confidence in being able to take two things that i really love, but what would be your choice?!!

Finally to all the persons who were hurt by my last post sooooo sorry I didn't mean to do this,so I'll tell you now that I am better and getting over my negative feelings,so you have to get better too..And to a certain person I want to see you like this sooon:)

I need you so much,to lean on you and get out all this bad and terrible feelings but I don't know how to and this is killing me yet I hope there will be some solution to this to overcome this stupid barrier and get to you...cause I can't take this any more ,I feel like getting shattered and broken ,like my soul is being taken away,so please.......

I've been in a bad mood for some days, I have this great rage that I want to quarrel with someone to get this out, however amid this I listened to one of your songs and it could get some of these negative feelings out,and it has always been like this you can release my inner most feelings and make me want to go on and continue,so why is this ,i am always wondering......

I am out of words yet I want to write something cause am a bit suffocated why,I don't know,I am just suffocated and all I want to do is to listen to music and stay in bed ,but this wrong,totally wrong.I think I need them again to give me a push forward as they have always done,yes it was only you who could push and help ;why I still don't know but anyway thank you to the end,i am always grateful...

Today started in a bit bad way,I heard bad news and suddenly I felt like seeing you but as usual you were not there and I couldn't reach you, because of my pride I could not do this and call or talk.However things started to be a bit more good as I went out and saw something good from my friends,still I really want to see you...

So,I guess this love is not impossible, but how I don't know,it's just something happened today that made me realize at last, I can love this person and he can too but how ; I don't know,and I guess I'll leave the rest to allah to decide whether or not this can be. I believe the real answer will be revealed someday,I just have to wait and see.....

How come that life is so complicated?We seem to face more hard situations as we grow older!Why is it so hard to like someone, even though you like that person it's impossible to be with him, loving him is like a dream or an   illusion ,very far away from your hand,but it's the only thing that comforts you and bring you peace of mind,is it so wrong to like that person!. Also can someone be in love without realizing it ,even running away from this love ,but whenever a couple's image is brought in front of him ,this person-the one he run away from-immediately come to his mind ,is this love or just another illusion brought by the need to be loved and cared for?!!

Today while talking to my friend about how girls brag about boys who like them or who try to get close to them, I remembered that I've never taken notice of a boy giving me more care or likeness, there were always other persons who notice and tell me,saying that this boy is doing such acts because he likes you or that he is keeping an eye on me.But how come that not for once I've seen this care,why is there often someone to drag my attention,why i'm always like that,is it a kind of foolishness or being naive or what?! I remembered also that I take notice of the significance of others attitudes after a very long time, may be years; so why is that,I have always asked myself this,and despite this I am still the same,and haven't learned to see if someone like me or not. foolish me : ): ) 

  Soul mate,does this person really exist,and if he does,how can you get to know it's him?! Can you meet the right person at the wrong time and place,where everything seem possible except your relation with that person! It can be very hard when you know that this person is the one but both of you know that it's impossible to be together, so what to do then ;can we accept reality or try to create our own world and circumstances where being together will be the only possible thing?!!!!!  

Yessssssssssssssssssss, I am in that wonderful and silly mood again,  characterized by foolish smiles,wanting to jump and dance,just cause I've seen something i like very much.it's just that every time I watch or hear a song i like i turn to this mood,it's just very small and apparently trivial incidents can lift up my whole day and spirit,so always have something like this

It has been a very tiring week since I had this awkward  and strange phone call,I barely sleep at night and I became ill.This is very bad and irritating, cause although there's just one person that can understand my feelings but can't offer a solution to my confusion. So can someone love for years with  no words , keeping oneself apart to avoid that love! It's very hard and unbelievable but reality can be more strange than fiction and imagination. However el7 god always send me something that relief that pain a little like this wonderful series "WILD ROMANCE" and SJ and SS songs that can always bring up my mood and release my trapped tears,so whenever a door gets closed a window is opened