Today, I want to thank truly my friends, those friends who accepted me the way I am and didn't want to change me so I can suite their taste and their personalities,,,,really thank you so much, you're the best friends and I hope we'll stay together forever....kmashyo <3 :) 

You may have the right to hurt those who hurt you before, but in the end you'll end up being more hurt; that's me right now, hurt more, suffering more, and can't get rid of this more and more; it's getting worse and worse every now and then....

أد إيه احساس حلو لما تحس إنك بتستعبط على حد وإنه فاقس الاستعباط ده بس في الآخر إنت مبسوط عشان هو حس أخيرًا إنك بتستعبط، يااااااااااااااااااااه إحساس حلو أوي؛ زي متكون أخيرًا إديت لواحد مضايقك دش ساااااااااقع أو ضربته بوكس هههههههههههههههههه بجد احساس تحفة. حقيقي إنت كنت محتاج الدش ده عشان تفهم وتفوق إنه مهما كنت إنت مين أو مكانتك عندي شكلها إيه بس في الآخر أنا مبسامحش بسهولة ولا بعدي بسهولة، ولا تفتكر إن أنا موجودة لما يبقى مودك حلو ترضى عني ولما يقلب تسيبني..... ياريت تكون الرسالة وصلت إن أنا حقيقي تعبت أوي أوي ومهما كان نفسي أشوفك أو كنت واحشني جدًا، ففي الآخر مش هسمحلك تتعبني كتير ولا تاخدني كحاجة مسلم بيها... أنا مش كده وعمري ما هكون....

I miss you and need you like no other thing in the world, yet getting close is too dangerous for me that I rather live in this suffering and awful state than to be in a dangerous situation again. What to do, and how to respond when every gesture made is rejected by me, it's too difficult for me...I really want to talk with you and hear your opinion, to find someone who can really understand...

I am tired,exhausted,and frustrated, I don't wanna go back there again but this way i'll be running, still I can't bear....Life really is not easy, it's hard hard and ...........

Hey, how do you do my dream? I missed you so mush, as it has been long time since I last saw you. :) but don't worry, you're always on my mind, sharing every moment with me and I remember you at every situation; cause my dream only understands me and my feelings...Please come soon, I want to see you or may be I'll be able to see you later today...anyo :)

And here we met, after almost three years just to realize that either you're living in comma or I don't occupy any part of your thinking, however what surprised me the most was my reaction, I was so calm and decent and talked like nothing has happened. Unfortunately I can't even describe my feelings because I don't know whether I was happy, sad, disappointed or indifferent ,may be because I made a reaction not expected from me.....I am  unable to say anymore cause I can't....So What happened today!!!!!!!

So what's this?!why am I like this? I am in a very good mood, smiling and happy,yet deep deep down in my heart there seems to be a continuous pain,that doesn't disappear and can't be even be calmed by my good mood. I am sick of this state and I want to end it,really wish if I could get you out of there my heart,because your pain is unbearable to me any more, cause I want to enjoy my life and time not to be disturbed by you every single moment, so please I beg you stop this or at least find a solution...I want to be relieved of this pain pleaaaaase...

كم اتمنى أن تكون معي فِى هذآ

الوقت

بدلاً من كتآبه أمنيتي فقط........

There is moment when you're longing for someone that you feel as if every part of you is being shattered into pieces ,i think it's a reaction made by your body cause it doesn't want to feel the pain of missing someone so instead it creates a physical pain to distract you,still this pain or that is unbearable so hurting that you wish to just lose feeling or take some kind of drug to let  you sleep long to lose or forget the pain....

Nothing is worst than being in dear need to talk to someone yet there is no one to listen,and what's even worse is when the only person who can listen is the exact one who you can't talk to,it's really killing and frustrating like you're left alone in this world...

Am I asking for too much if I say ,I wish to see you in my dreams cause I just want to forget everything and go to another world,to be relieved and to regain strength ,Yes pleeeeeeeeeeease come....

How come that someone who had once been in the highest place turn to be  a childish,immature and selfish person, who turns from being intimate and caring to someone very cold and far that dare to block you from life,was I being too harsh that you couldn't handle or accept this but let me tell you that this was nothing to what you've done, I just wanted you to feel a bit of your actions but if you couldn't accept it then  I want to say that I am sorry to have once thought about you as a mature and caring person, a brother and a friend that   I admired,cause you didn't deserve this position given to you...

احلى حاجة فى الدنيا لما تبقى مخنوق اوى وفجأة ربنا يبعتلك حاجة غير متوقعة تفرحك اوى وتغير مودك عشان تفتكر ديما تقول الحمد لله وتبقى واثق ان نهاية كل ضيق فرج باذن الله ونهاية كل ضلمة نور ان شاء الله, الحمد لله....

Right now it feels like a huge stone is lying on my chest,I don't know why but it's too heavy and suffocating , I really wanna travel away fom home alone for some time,to relax and rest my head a bit,yarab

Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, I've missed you soooooooooooooo much ,yarab 

I am flyiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing away ,I am flying away away away.........

(DEDE THAT"S FOR YOU)

Covering my ears to listen to you
Shutting my eyes to imagine you
You have slowly become blurred, you have slowly left me
In the unstoppable memories

I stop (stop) I stop (stop)
The memories of having once loved, control me so easily
Once again, One more time
How can it end like this I cannot believe
Those countless promises, what to do, what to do

Not breathing to feel you
Clutching both fists together to touch you
You have slowly become blurred, you have slowly left me
In the unstoppable memories

I stop (stop) I stop (stop)
The memories of having once loved, control me so easily
Once again, One more time
How can it end like this, I cannot believe
Those countless promises, what to do, what to do

Not breathing to feel you
Clutching both fists together to touch you
You have slowly become blurred, you have slowly left me
In the unstoppable memories

I stop (stop) I stop (stop)
The memories of having once loved, control me so easily
Once again, One more time
How can it end like this, I cannot believe
Those countless promises, what to do, what to do

No fear of pain, no fear of hurt
Only with you here will I be able to live
Without you I am just as if I have lost a life
Unable to move forward, unable to move backward
What do I do, what do I do

Stop

Dark and lightless (since the day you left)
Dark and lightless (since the day you dumped me)
Since the day you left me
I have died a little

Once again, One more time
How can it end like this, I cannot believe
Those countless promises, what to do, what to do

Sometimes there are feelings screaming to get out ,but it feels like holding them in is better, or may we just release them before making an explosion...It's just sometimes we wish to have just a little chance..

بحبك اوى يا ريتو لما تبقى عارفة الحقيقة وتفضلى تخلقى أعذار لأوهامك, بس عند وقت معين تقولى لأ خلاص لحد كدا وبس,I like  your ego when it takes control at important times,please rito's ego always stand up

sho3'l 3aly awe :D

i am not ritoto i am her bro :D

And again to prove that only YOU can take me out of this world, to forget all my worries and troubles to fall into YOUR world, so again and again You're the best

SJ Thanks for the smile....

SJ finally baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack just in time, missed you soooooooo so much

I hate you rito when you become so emotional, cause I don't what to do or how to control you, you are really detestable so stop being like this.

I want to write but don't know what to write because I am too empty, confused or just don't know, so I just wanted to mention that there are persons who make me laugh from the bottom of my heart and others who bring me also the best laugh but always accompanied with tears ,why I don't know and I really would love to know. Another thing I just want to have an empty mind I hate this self that thinks too much, if I just stop thinking but I hope there will be something to stop me,and at last is it too much too have high standards or extraordinary expectations, yarab why have I seen those best it's too hard for me....

ياااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااا أول ماشوفتكو انهردة حسيت انكو وحشتووووووووووووووووووووونى اوى كتير خالصmiss you gdn yarab ashofko b2a 

There is a moment when you feel empty,just empty with no feelings inside,neither sadness nor joy,you can't laugh and at the same time you can't cry,it's just emptiness,and you feel yourself like a machine or a doll only reacting to people's actions,and your face is just as empty and lifeless,just if I were to know the reason...........

It's said that those who don't learn from their mistakes are stupid,so I guess I am not only stupid no tooooooooooo stupid,I am tired of me that never learn and keep on hurting herself ....hope you'll learn from now on...

وكما هى الحال دائما,تحطم حلمى على صخرة الواقع....آآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآه يا حلمى مكنش يومك مكنت قاعد وكويس ومرتاح  لازم يعنى تخرج برة أديك ادمرت شوف بقى هترجعلى إزاى.....آه ما كنت طيب و حبوب و معيشنى الآمال الكبرى..........أنا اللى استاهل...

HAPPY SEVENTH ANNIVERSARY SS, YOU'LL ALWAYS BE MY FAVORIT EVER EVER.... 

عجبا لكى يا نفسى,ففى لحظة تضحكين ملء السماء وتمتلئين فرحا و أملا,وبعدها بلحظات تسقط دموعك دون سبب أو مبرر...إييييه انتى مجنونة ولا عبيطة ,شكلك هابلة..بس إعملى حسابك لو متعدلتيش هضربك أيوة ناس متجيش غير بالسك....

تأتى أوقات نتمنى لو كان بإمكاننا فقط إفراغ هذه المشاعر والتخلص منها,كما لو أننا وعاء يفرغ ما بداخله ليكون أخف. وفى أحيان أخرى نتمنى لو نجد ذلك الشخص الذى يستطيع إفراغ تلك المشاعر,لكن للأسف هم دائما كالحاضر الغائب لا نجده فى أشد أوقات إحتياجنا له...فقط لو نجد هذا الشخص....

SS501 reunites as one for Kyu Jong’s fanmeet

by lawlietta - 5 hours ago

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With the members of SS501 busy with their own individual activities, the public has been unable to see the group together since 2010.

However, Triple S fans in Seoul were able to see the five members all together this weekend, whenHyun Joong, Young Saeng, Jung Min and Hyung Jun made special plans to attend Kyu Jong‘s final fanmeet before his army enlistment.

According to reports, Hyun Joong flew in after hosting his own fanmeet in China, and Jung Min looked on from the audience for unannounced reasons.

While Kyu Jong’s enlistment means that SS501 cannot be fully active as five until 2014, many Triple S fans have been ecstatic about finally seeing the group together for the first time in two years. The five-man fanmeet energized Triple S fans around the world, with Hyun Joong reassuring, ”SS501 will never disband, so please wait for us!”

Although official photos have yet to be released, online fan communities and social media websites have exploded with messages, with the hashtag #SS501Reunited reportedly trending on Twitter in Indonesia, Singapore and other parts of Southeast Asia for some time. Fanmeet attendees have also begun to post photos of the five men together at the event  on the internet, sharing the experience with eager Triple S fans worldwide.

In related news, Young Saeng just made his solo comeback on ‘Inkigayo‘ last night with his latest song, “Crying“, and Hyun Joong recently topped Oricon’s DVD chart as the second international solo artist since Michael Jackson,

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SJ are baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack!! heeeeeeeeeee,so extremely happy,SJ fighting :)

You know I love you so much, but I start getting tired because of this burst of emotions you awake in me,these emotions which aren't expressible and at the same time fighting to flow away and get out,but unfortunately they fail to.Yet sometime they just win over me and tears start to fall without a stop or an end, I am in this state now with so many feelings in but no way out....

لكم انتظرنا تلك الصدفة التى فد تجمعنا بهم أو على الاقل تسمح لنا برؤيتهم من بعيد, لنطمئن أنهم لازالو هناك يعيشون بخير,حتى ولو كانت تلك الصدفة مؤلمة فيما بعد فهى ستظل أمنية عزيزة مدفونة بداخلنا بانتظار حدوثها..........

Can I ever stop loving you and be in need for you, it's like addiction that can not be got rid off,and I don't want to ,cause this is the best thing that happened to me till now.......................

Although we face disappointments often,we continue hoping why I really don't know,many times came when I told myself stop hoping and having future plans but I always don't,and so face other disappointments.I guess this I believe Allah will grant my hopes and so I will forever continue believing,may be one day they'll come true.Yarab I am in a great ordeal now ,am not asking for anything but patience and giving us a solution or compensation for this great disappointment,amiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin.

And Here is another one,Hello mello :)

Just like a Strawberry Ice Cream
Fresh and sweet, every day is new
I hope this is not a dream
Again today, I earnestly pray

Just like a Sweet Marshmellow Cream
Like a charming and fun fairy tale
Our destiny won’t change
I will make you smile every day

I’m still a bit inexperienced
But I will try to have courage
Even if it’s a little embarrassing, today I will

Even if the stars fall and the world changes,
I will protect you
Every day and every night
You just need to stay here

Baby Hello Mello Be My Love
No matter what anyone says, you’re my love
Whenever, wherever, stay by me
Come to my world

Baby Hello Mello By My Love
Forever you’re so my love
I will promise you under the sky
You’re the only one
My Only Love

Sometimes like a melodrama film
Sometimes like a romantic comic book
Never wanna be the same
I will become a leading man only for you

On summers with hot sunlight
On winters with white falling snow
I won’t let go of this hand, I will be with you all day

Listen to my heart You baby girl
Though it won’t be easy
Today, it’s a bit different
Don’t you know that

Even if the stars fall and the world changes,
I will protect you
Every day and every night
You just need to stay here

Baby Hello Mello Be My Love
No matter what anyone says, you’re my love
Whenever, wherever, stay by me
Come to my world

Baby Hello Mello By My Love
Forever you’re so my love
I will promise you under the sky
You’re the only one
My Only Love

Baby Hello Mello Be My Love
Even after saying it a thousand times, my love
The reason why I live in this world
I will say, is you, yeah

Baby Hello Mello By My Love
Forever you’re so my love
I will promise you under the sky
You’re the only one
My Only Love

Today this is something new but I can not publish these, they are just too good:

                                         Maria – on top of this sad ground called separation

There is a small tree of tears
On this place that I let you go
It’s a tree that grows on tears

Maria – With all this tied up longing
The tree of tears endlessly flows
Like a split heart, with a painful breath
A flower of tears bloom whitely

How can I forget you?
Can I even forget you?
There are just days more heart-chilling than the cold winter
To me, the sunlight, the wind, the world are all scary

It grows only by clinging on to your memories
Though the thorns of tears twist and become scarred
I need to swallow that pain and endure it
Because I know you will come back again
I am waiting, Maria

So that the leaving footsteps will be shined upon
The tree of tears hangs the moonlight
As I watch the shadows grow farther away
The flower of tears sadly fall

How can I forget you?
Can I even forget you?
There are just days more heart-chilling than the cold winter
To me, the sunlight, the wind, the world are all scary

It grows only by clinging on to your memories
Though the thorns of tears twist and become scarred
I need to swallow that pain and endure it
Because you will come back again

Even if the rough winds fill the days
Even if the thick darkness blinds the eyes
I want to protect my heart without change
Yeah, I love you

It grows only by clinging on to your memories
Though the thorns of tears twist and become scarred
I need to swallow that pain and endure it
Because you will come back again Maria

It grows only by clinging on to your memories
Though the thorns of tears twist and become scarred
I need to protect this place forever
Because my love is only you, Maria Maria

Because I know you will come back again
I am waiting, Maria

                                               Because you will come back again, Maria

I am writing now to share my happiness with everyone,el7 I am in a wonderful state now ,but I won't say whyyyyyyyyyy! SECRET! however this is so good I just wish I can hold onto this somehow,I wanted to write happily today instead of my continuous sadness and gloom ,so everyone please be happy and enjoy every moment of your life,because one day you'll regret not living your life to the fullest :) :) :) heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.Finally thaaaaaaaaaank you allah for this and for sending me this state,yarab dymn 

Is it painful to be sad,of course it's,but it's even sadder to be in pain that you can't share others their happiness.Yesterday I was like this so sad and frustrated that in the middle of all the good things and atmosphere around me,I couldn't be happy, rather I wanted to run very far away to cry and get this out,but I couldn't.I stayed in this condition the whole night,despite the fact that every thing around me was beautiful and cheerful,but the fact that you weren't there kept being a burden on my heart I couldn't lift...although now I feel like I am exaggerating but these were my feelings yesterday,so is this exaggeration or not still don't know?!! 

These words have been stored for a very long time, so I wanted to get them out today,I just want to express my astonishment towards myself,this self that forgets whatever hurting it or causing pain after seeing certain people,those who taught me the real meaning for friendship and sincerity,of being selfless and straight forward no cunning, who care about you whenever you are happy and specially when you're hurt.Also I have come across something that whenever I see it I forget all my sadness and pain,why I don't know it just happen,may be because they taught me new feelings I have never known before, or I really don't know, these are just some accumulated feelings in my head and heart ,although I can't quietly express them, I have tried my best to reflect some of them....

I decided to write now to get these feelings out, yes I wanna talk to this person so much and I wanna see him,but as usual it's useless,although I can call him,but my pride prevents me and the fact that this might lead to something i don't want and I fear forbids me from doing so. How to end this I don't know, it's so hard to lose one of your friends and a person so close to you, damn I hate these complications that end wonderful relationships....please God grant me patience and peace of mind.....

Have you ever been proud of someone? It's really a great and wonderful feeling to be proud of someone ,because this person has not failed your expectations,yet he raised them more and more, made you expect more and look for more. You really never fail my expectations and always make me proud that I have made the right choice despite others opinions, my feeling is so great that I wish I could tell every body that this is you, the real one. And finally thank you so much for making me happy and giving me this bit of laughter and cheerfulness....