I decided to write now to get these feelings out, yes I wanna talk to this person so much and I wanna see him,but as usual it's useless,although I can call him,but my pride prevents me and the fact that this might lead to something i don't want and I fear forbids me from doing so. How to end this I don't know, it's so hard to lose one of your friends and a person so close to you, damn I hate these complications that end wonderful relationships....please God grant me patience and peace of mind.....