Was all that just an emotional upsurge, nothing more? Or was it just awaken by a dream and terminated by another dream? I can't believe that all the pain I had gone through and faced was nothing, or am I finally coping and adapting to a reality, as in the end You know he'll never feel and you're not the type to force your feelings upon someone; or was it because finally you've gotten out all your feelings and talked about them with someone. I don't know, really i'm out of clue and I can't figure out if these were true feelings or just an upsurge.