I hate this weakness that hit me, that desire to find you, to see you, the fact that i'm too aware of your presence and that I can't control checking your presence every now and then, I hate that I long for seeing you and for that dream to come true, though I had decided to let go of this and leave it all to Allah but once I saw you I just forgot everything previously decided :(( I want to cry a lot a lot. I am so tired beyond words of me and my feelings, please Allah grant your help on me..