Can I ever stop loving you and be in need for you, it's like addiction that can not be got rid off,and I don't want to ,cause this is the best thing that happened to me till now.......................

Although we face disappointments often,we continue hoping why I really don't know,many times came when I told myself stop hoping and having future plans but I always don't,and so face other disappointments.I guess this I believe Allah will grant my hopes and so I will forever continue believing,may be one day they'll come true.Yarab I am in a great ordeal now ,am not asking for anything but patience and giving us a solution or compensation for this great disappointment,amiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin.

And Here is another one,Hello mello :)

Just like a Strawberry Ice Cream
Fresh and sweet, every day is new
I hope this is not a dream
Again today, I earnestly pray

Just like a Sweet Marshmellow Cream
Like a charming and fun fairy tale
Our destiny won’t change
I will make you smile every day

I’m still a bit inexperienced
But I will try to have courage
Even if it’s a little embarrassing, today I will

Even if the stars fall and the world changes,
I will protect you
Every day and every night
You just need to stay here

Baby Hello Mello Be My Love
No matter what anyone says, you’re my love
Whenever, wherever, stay by me
Come to my world

Baby Hello Mello By My Love
Forever you’re so my love
I will promise you under the sky
You’re the only one
My Only Love

Sometimes like a melodrama film
Sometimes like a romantic comic book
Never wanna be the same
I will become a leading man only for you

On summers with hot sunlight
On winters with white falling snow
I won’t let go of this hand, I will be with you all day

Listen to my heart You baby girl
Though it won’t be easy
Today, it’s a bit different
Don’t you know that

Even if the stars fall and the world changes,
I will protect you
Every day and every night
You just need to stay here

Baby Hello Mello Be My Love
No matter what anyone says, you’re my love
Whenever, wherever, stay by me
Come to my world

Baby Hello Mello By My Love
Forever you’re so my love
I will promise you under the sky
You’re the only one
My Only Love

Baby Hello Mello Be My Love
Even after saying it a thousand times, my love
The reason why I live in this world
I will say, is you, yeah

Baby Hello Mello By My Love
Forever you’re so my love
I will promise you under the sky
You’re the only one
My Only Love

Today this is something new but I can not publish these, they are just too good:

                                         Maria – on top of this sad ground called separation

There is a small tree of tears
On this place that I let you go
It’s a tree that grows on tears

Maria – With all this tied up longing
The tree of tears endlessly flows
Like a split heart, with a painful breath
A flower of tears bloom whitely

How can I forget you?
Can I even forget you?
There are just days more heart-chilling than the cold winter
To me, the sunlight, the wind, the world are all scary

It grows only by clinging on to your memories
Though the thorns of tears twist and become scarred
I need to swallow that pain and endure it
Because I know you will come back again
I am waiting, Maria

So that the leaving footsteps will be shined upon
The tree of tears hangs the moonlight
As I watch the shadows grow farther away
The flower of tears sadly fall

How can I forget you?
Can I even forget you?
There are just days more heart-chilling than the cold winter
To me, the sunlight, the wind, the world are all scary

It grows only by clinging on to your memories
Though the thorns of tears twist and become scarred
I need to swallow that pain and endure it
Because you will come back again

Even if the rough winds fill the days
Even if the thick darkness blinds the eyes
I want to protect my heart without change
Yeah, I love you

It grows only by clinging on to your memories
Though the thorns of tears twist and become scarred
I need to swallow that pain and endure it
Because you will come back again Maria

It grows only by clinging on to your memories
Though the thorns of tears twist and become scarred
I need to protect this place forever
Because my love is only you, Maria Maria

Because I know you will come back again
I am waiting, Maria

                                               Because you will come back again, Maria

I am writing now to share my happiness with everyone,el7 I am in a wonderful state now ,but I won't say whyyyyyyyyyy! SECRET! however this is so good I just wish I can hold onto this somehow,I wanted to write happily today instead of my continuous sadness and gloom ,so everyone please be happy and enjoy every moment of your life,because one day you'll regret not living your life to the fullest :) :) :) heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.Finally thaaaaaaaaaank you allah for this and for sending me this state,yarab dymn 

Is it painful to be sad,of course it's,but it's even sadder to be in pain that you can't share others their happiness.Yesterday I was like this so sad and frustrated that in the middle of all the good things and atmosphere around me,I couldn't be happy, rather I wanted to run very far away to cry and get this out,but I couldn't.I stayed in this condition the whole night,despite the fact that every thing around me was beautiful and cheerful,but the fact that you weren't there kept being a burden on my heart I couldn't lift...although now I feel like I am exaggerating but these were my feelings yesterday,so is this exaggeration or not still don't know?!! 

These words have been stored for a very long time, so I wanted to get them out today,I just want to express my astonishment towards myself,this self that forgets whatever hurting it or causing pain after seeing certain people,those who taught me the real meaning for friendship and sincerity,of being selfless and straight forward no cunning, who care about you whenever you are happy and specially when you're hurt.Also I have come across something that whenever I see it I forget all my sadness and pain,why I don't know it just happen,may be because they taught me new feelings I have never known before, or I really don't know, these are just some accumulated feelings in my head and heart ,although I can't quietly express them, I have tried my best to reflect some of them....

I decided to write now to get these feelings out, yes I wanna talk to this person so much and I wanna see him,but as usual it's useless,although I can call him,but my pride prevents me and the fact that this might lead to something i don't want and I fear forbids me from doing so. How to end this I don't know, it's so hard to lose one of your friends and a person so close to you, damn I hate these complications that end wonderful relationships....please God grant me patience and peace of mind.....

Have you ever been proud of someone? It's really a great and wonderful feeling to be proud of someone ,because this person has not failed your expectations,yet he raised them more and more, made you expect more and look for more. You really never fail my expectations and always make me proud that I have made the right choice despite others opinions, my feeling is so great that I wish I could tell every body that this is you, the real one. And finally thank you so much for making me happy and giving me this bit of laughter and cheerfulness....

I feel like these many feelings are suffocating me,they are just accumulated in some place ,with no words to describe them,to get them out of this place,may be because there are no words to express them,however they are still killing and suffocating,like a very heavy burden on my chest ,preventing me from breathing....get out I want to breeeeeeeeeeeeeathe....

I feel tired of my great expectations of always looking for the best or it's not the best ,it's just what I like and want to have, however everyone tries to convince me that these are unreal and like hallucinations.I might have believed so too just if I have not seen these expectations in someone,although I know this person is not for me,but his presence gave me hope and me just hope to find someone like him.I was really surprised to find someone to meet my hopes but at the end it's like a dream,however it gave me hope for the better, and for my dream to come true one day...yes I feel like being in a cage or to put it better a dream,I know this dream is not real and the cage is refraining me but I like it so much and don't wanna escape, may be because I know that this is safer or because reality is always worse, I just wanna know will I ever escape this or find a way out of it,.................

Have you ever felt that you want to disappear,to just fade away and keep yourself hidden in a very far away place where no one can recognize or disturb you, I really want to go to that place to stay by myself and be away from everything else, without being bothered or burdened by other thoughts, just to fade away. If this is good or bad ,I don't know, but I think it's bad cause I'll be detaching myself from life,It's true I want to be separated from life ,from everything around me to be alone,alone,alone. It's escaping,yes,however I just want to escape even if this was bad, so please yarab help me to escape and leave this burdening feeling...