Today, I want to thank truly my friends, those friends who accepted me the way I am and didn't want to change me so I can suite their taste and their personalities,,,,really thank you so much, you're the best friends and I hope we'll stay together forever....kmashyo <3 :) 

You may have the right to hurt those who hurt you before, but in the end you'll end up being more hurt; that's me right now, hurt more, suffering more, and can't get rid of this more and more; it's getting worse and worse every now and then....

أد إيه احساس حلو لما تحس إنك بتستعبط على حد وإنه فاقس الاستعباط ده بس في الآخر إنت مبسوط عشان هو حس أخيرًا إنك بتستعبط، يااااااااااااااااااااه إحساس حلو أوي؛ زي متكون أخيرًا إديت لواحد مضايقك دش ساااااااااقع أو ضربته بوكس هههههههههههههههههه بجد احساس تحفة. حقيقي إنت كنت محتاج الدش ده عشان تفهم وتفوق إنه مهما كنت إنت مين أو مكانتك عندي شكلها إيه بس في الآخر أنا مبسامحش بسهولة ولا بعدي بسهولة، ولا تفتكر إن أنا موجودة لما يبقى مودك حلو ترضى عني ولما يقلب تسيبني..... ياريت تكون الرسالة وصلت إن أنا حقيقي تعبت أوي أوي ومهما كان نفسي أشوفك أو كنت واحشني جدًا، ففي الآخر مش هسمحلك تتعبني كتير ولا تاخدني كحاجة مسلم بيها... أنا مش كده وعمري ما هكون....

I miss you and need you like no other thing in the world, yet getting close is too dangerous for me that I rather live in this suffering and awful state than to be in a dangerous situation again. What to do, and how to respond when every gesture made is rejected by me, it's too difficult for me...I really want to talk with you and hear your opinion, to find someone who can really understand...

I am tired,exhausted,and frustrated, I don't wanna go back there again but this way i'll be running, still I can't bear....Life really is not easy, it's hard hard and ...........

Hey, how do you do my dream? I missed you so mush, as it has been long time since I last saw you. :) but don't worry, you're always on my mind, sharing every moment with me and I remember you at every situation; cause my dream only understands me and my feelings...Please come soon, I want to see you or may be I'll be able to see you later today...anyo :)